Dreams and not wanting to let go...

Pain tells you that you are still alive.

Haha...din know that i would have stuff to write about so soon...den again...life is never dull...ladida~

Josh Kor, don't worry i will try not to get any more injuries...i will try, but i don't know how successful i will be...-.-;;;

Hey JY,
How goes the army? What guitar crazy are u getting caught up with?When will you be free? Wanna plan a get together with the lit people?

A-Level people!!!!
Keep at it manz~ Next thursday arh~ Call me if you need to destress...haha :)

Ivan...*Sharon take a deep breath*
HOW CAN YOU GO DRIVING AND NOT CALL ME ALONG?!?!?!?!?!?!
*Bish!*

Adelyn! I totally agree! You are slacker! Haha..how's the prep for the exams coming along? How many ccas do u have arh?

SHOUT OUT TO : Yang Mui...
THANKS FOR LENDING ME THE CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKS FOR LENDING ME THE CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKS FOR LENDING ME THE CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKS FOR LENDING ME THE CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKS FOR LENDING ME THE CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKS FOR LENDING ME THE CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKS FOR LENDING ME THE CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKS FOR LENDING ME THE CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^-^

Recap----
"QuEsTiOn Of ThE dAy : What can be seen from the moon?
Any takers? Yang Mui is not allowed to answer because she already knows the answer. :p Haha..."
Answer : My handwriting....Buah hahahahahhaha....*Sans the flying slippers and various hand weapons* Hahahaha....

Guess who i dreamt of last night!
Want some clues?
*Acted in a movie this year
*Movie star (duh~)
*Is in my list of fav. actors [If this ain't a huge hint i don't know what is...]
Guess, guess, guess!

You know that period immediately after someone close to you dies?
Of course you send a good deal of time in morning for the person, but there's more right?
Every thought you have some how gets linked back to the person.
You think of his/her good and bad qualities.
Try to ingrain what the person looked like or sounded like, coz your afraid that you'll forget.
You think of what could have been.
When your thoughts drift off to somewhere else and you realise you have not been thinking of that person, you feel guilty that you did not have that person in your mind.
(As i write this, its getting real hard to breathe and my visions bluring)
You wish that you had more time with this person.
You wish that you had said and not said certain things.
Your heart feels empty, but there's that huge pang when you think of that person and still you continue to think of him/her because you don't wanna forget him.
Well, i kinda felt that way when my grandpa went to be with God.
I miss his cooking, the way he sang me to sleep, how he hugged me, his drawings, just him being him.
It's very hard to write this cause it hurts alot.
Something inside me does not like people to see me cry so... i have to write bit by bit in order not to let my family members find me crying while infront of the computer.
I know i need to let go in order to move on with my life.
I just find that i don't wanna.
I'm still very much that little girl who was told her Ah Gong would not be coming home any more.
With all that said, I've always been very jealous of my other family memebers for having been able to dream of my grandfather. Childish i know, but i haven't dreamt of him in any of the 12 years since his death. So now it's time for a confession : i did not just dream of that actor last night.
I dreamt of two other people.
My Grandfather and my younger-self.
I won't go into the details of the dream. Too darn personal. Please forgive me for not sharing.
Does that mean that i have finally let go of him?
You tell me... coz it still hurts like hell when i think of my grandpa.
I'm just thankful that for a short time, i was with him again, even if it was not real.
Ah gong if you can hear me: I MISS YOU!

Me thinks i had better go before i really break-down.
Ciao~